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In 2014, Navy fighter pilot Kegan “Smurf” Gill was at the controls of an F/A-18 Super Hornet when a catastrophic malfunction sent the jet into a 695 mph (1,118 km/h) dive. He ejected seconds before impact and survived massive trauma: broken limbs, a shattered neck and a severe brain injury.
Eventually, he received a diagnosis of delayed-onset post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), which “impacted his flying career like a warhead.” As his flying career slipped away, he lost his sense of purpose and felt intense feelings of shame at letting down everyone who’d ever believed in him. He even thought about suicide.
Gill continued to receive medications, and then “life spun really out of control.” He spent 40 days and nights locked in a Veterans Affairs inpatient psychiatric facility. “When I got out, I was a broken shell of a man in a drug induced stupor,” Gill said.
This is not where his story ended, though. He connected with the Heroic Hearts Project (HHP), a nonprofit that links veterans with supervised psychedelic therapy abroad, and in Peru, Gill underwent treatment with the psychedelic ayahuasca — an experience that he credits with setting him on the road to healing.
The HHP has hosted more than 1,100 veterans and veteran spouses through its retreat programs, which are aimed at reducing or eliminating PTSD symptoms and improving the participants’ quality of life. Most of the retreats have involved ayahuasca, a psychoactive brew traditionally used by Indigenous communities in the Amazon. Because ayahuasca is classified as a Schedule I controlled substance in the United States, these retreats are held in countries where the ceremony is legal.
But while anecdotal evidence abounds about the psychedelic drug’s purported benefits, research into its effectiveness lags behind that of other psychedelics, such as MDMA and psilocybin. Only a few small studies have investigated ayahuasca for PTSD, and those have not been placebo-controlled, randomized clinical trials — the gold standard for showing that a drug is effective. This makes it difficult to tease apart whether ayahuasca reduces PTSD symptoms, or whether other factors — such as therapy or the retreat environment — may be what helps resolve PTSD symptoms.
Further complicating matters, the botanical brew of ayahuasca contains two main components: the psychoactive DMT (N,N-Dimethyltryptamine) and beta-carbolines. The concentration of these ingredients varies among batches, making it difficult to create a standardized, repeatable dose required for rigorous clinical trials. In contrast, MDMA and psilocybin are single molecules, which can be synthesized and packaged as a pure, consistent and standardized pill or capsule that is much easier to use in a research setting. Also, pharmaceutical companies face challenges when trying to secure patents on ayahuasca, thus reducing the financial incentive for the massive private investment needed for large-scale clinical trials.
“It is probably never going to be a treatment in the traditional sense in the United States because it is a plant concoction,” clinical psychologist Gregory Fonzo, co-director of the Charmaine and Gordon McGill Center for Psychedelic Research and Therapy at the University of Texas at Austin’s Dell Medical School, told Live Science.
Measuring impact
Still, some researchers are trying to measure the drug’s impact on PTSD symptoms. The research arm of HHP designed and conducted an observational study that followed 58 veterans; 45 attended an ayahuasca retreat, and 13 went to a psilocybin retreat, between 2021 and 2024.
The scientists tracked changes in the participants’ mental health before and after their psychedelic experiences. They found that participants in both arms showed an average 29% reduction in depression symptoms and a 26% reduction in PTSD symptoms, along with improvements in anxiety, sleep, emotional well-being and quality of life.
“We only took veterans who met criteria for having PTSD, and more than 80% of them no longer met that criteria anymore,” neuroscientist Grace Blest-Hopley, HHP’s director of research, told Live Science.
To investigate further, Fonzo is currently collaborating with HHP and leading a study to examine the brain responses of combat veterans with PTSD and how they are altered following a course of ayahuasca treatment.
The Texas researchers are collecting a variety of brain imaging and clinical data, blood measures and electroencephalographic (EEG) recordings from veterans before and after they attend an ayahuasca retreat. The EEG data provides a way to identify objective, biological markers of PTSD. The scientists aim to recruit 40 participants for the study, which will probably take another year to complete, Fonzo said.
A complex concoction
In the HHP observational study, while both ayahuasca and psilocybin groups showed a reduction in symptoms after treatment, ayahuasca appeared slightly more effective. However, the researchers cautioned that the study was not designed to directly compare treatments.
Fonzo thinks both compounds operate in a two-phase process. In the first phase, the psychedelics disrupt the psychological patterns that people are stuck in and effectively “shake up the snow globe.” The second phase is marked by an enhancement of neuroplasticity, which is the ability to forge new connections between neurons. This second phase can last a few weeks. “That creates an opportunity for people to glean and consolidate insights and reshape their brain in a way that is more conducive to mental health,” Fonzo said.
To have this effect, both psilocybin and DMT, the main active part of ayahuasca, activate the serotonin 2A receptor in the brain. But the ayahuasca brew also contains beta-carbolines, which boost the levels of the key mood chemicals serotonin and norepinephrine in the body and brain. The DMT in ayahuasca also has its own unique targets, such as the “sigma-1 receptor,” leading to a broader and more complex effect on the brain’s chemistry than is found with psilocybin, Fonzo said.
Still, research on ayahuasca is in its early stages, Fonzo said, and it is hard to tease apart how other aspects of the retreat experience influence the effectiveness of the drug.
For example, the HHP retreats place a strong emphasis on processing and integrating the psychedelic experience, which can include therapy, community support and lifestyle changes. “If you just do the medicine and then come out and carry on as normal and don’t make some changes, our brains will just go back to how they were before,” Blest-Hopley theorized.
Gill agreed. He feels that ayahuasca shattered the darkness he was living in and changed him at his core. But he began to heal after that, when he focused on sleep, nutrition, exercise, reconnection to nature and community, and meditation, he said. Now an ultra-endurance athlete, motivational speaker and coach who has written a book about his experiences, Gill says he wants to offer inspiration to anyone facing seemingly insurmountable challenges.
“I was able to regrow myself from within,” Gill said. “Now, I get to be the father, husband, son and friend that I was always meant to be.”
